
My last year's FHA kids going with me to compete at State.
My blog friend, Wendi, has posted a couple of open letters lately. She said that she feels better getting some things off of her chest. As I was making a comment to her last post I decided that I would try it. I think it is about time I vent some feelings that have been bottled up for a long time. I know that this is a long blog post but it is Wendi's fault.
HaHaI retired this time last year after teaching for 24 years... 2 years in preschool and 22 years in high school. I taught in the Family and Consumer Science Dept. (Home
Ec.) subjects that I loved ....life skills that are needed and I hoped would make a difference in the lives of my students.
I taught:
Child Development -where I ran a community preschool and my students were the teachers
Foods and Nutrition- where I taught basic cooking skills and nutritional values
Clothing 1A and 1B - where I taught basic and advanced sewing skills
On Your Own- where I taught seniors how to balance their check book, do their taxes, interview
for a job, develop a budget, develop communication and relationship skills and
many other skills needed for independent living.
Health and Sex Ed- classes required for graduation
Interior Design- where I taught principles and elements of design, etc.
I usually had 36-38 students in a class. Most of my classes were one semester long so I got new students twice a year. I taught about 185 students a day or about 370 a year which made about 8,140 over the 22 years that I taught high school. Some of these student were great. Some went on to take my college Child Dev. class and became teachers themselves. Some were in my FHA club (see picture above) and worked endlessly with me doing community service and preparing competitions that won at both the region and state levels. Those were great kids who made teaching wonderful. However, most were not like that and many were down right awful.
Do to the nature of my classes, I had to be out of my class a lot watching the students in the preschool or I was walking around my room helping students with projects. This gave my
honory students ample time to do the following.
This open letter is to the kids who acted so badly in class and caused me so much grief.
This is to those kids who:
*sent a decoy up to my desk asking for help to get my attention so you could set a fire in the trash can and set off the fire alarm for the whole school and I got blamed
*stole the ball out of my mouse over and over so I couldn't use my computer (and had to replace them with my own money)
*after me worrying about you, praying for you, staying up at nights trying to figure out how to help you, loving you, talking to you, trying to encourage you, you wrote "the f-word you" or "Mrs. S_____ is a witch" (which you spelled with a "B") with permanent markers on your desks and in my class text books.
*stole my
DVD's from me that I took to class to let you have a movie party
*that stole candy and treats from me (over and over) that I took to reward my classes. After you stole them I would have to rush to the store during my break to get more for the rest of my classes
*vandalized any thing you could just for the sake of vandalizing.... super gluing things to my desk like pencils, pens, paper clips, my cup, etc., super gluing your chair to the carpet, gang writing on EVERYTHING in permanent marker even on the "Baby Think It Over Dolls" that I paid $300 for each and it took me a year of fund raising to buy
*spraying caulking in my locks and ruining them
*spitting gum (daily)on my carpet, desks and books
*would argue for 5 min. when I told you to do something
*would laugh and make rude comments in our Sex Ed. classes when I was trying to teach you that
premarital sex not only presented unwanted pregnancy and health risks but damaged hearts and self esteem and had consequences that could ruin lives as well.
*set a fire in and burnt up my microwave which I had in class for the students to use who always came in to have lunch with me
*told your father that I was abusing you after you threw a wad of paper across the room and hit another student when we were trying to review for finals and I told you to stop. I didn't write a referral. I didn't kick you out of class because I didn't want you to miss the review. All I said was "That was inappropriate. Sit down."... but that night I got a call from the principal telling me that your dad had called the district office and complained about me abusing you and there would be an investigation forth coming.
*stole the money that I had collected for lab fees ($150)when I let you in and gave you half of my lunch because you said you were hungry and forgot to bring your free lunch card....I g
uess that you got the money out of my desk while I was fixing lunch for you.... then you ditched class, left school and we never saw you or the money again
*hid under desks and smoked pot in class while I was busy helping other sewing students
*and ( the one that made me the saddest of all.).. wrote .."F*!!* you, _itch" ... in my memory book that my students put together to give to me when I retired last year. I didn't find the vulgar comment until after school on my last day. It made me cry then. It makes me cry today. Couldn't you tell that I loved you?
What a sad way to sum up 22 years of teaching over 8,000 students! How could I have failed you so when I put my whole heart and soul into teaching you?
To all of you who did these things (and many more not listed) YOU WON.
YOU WORE ME OUT.
I didn't really want to retire at 63 because I love teaching, but after all the years of praying I'd have the
strength to get through another day, I COULDN'T DO IT ANY MORE either physically or emotionally. The funny thing is, if I had it to do over again, I WOULD because I can't think of any other job that I would want to do except teach. I hope that there are some of you who's lives I touched for the better.
Did writing this open letter make me feel better???? I don't know but it feels good to vent about these things that have made me sad for a long time...... sorry blog friends but thanks for listening (or I should say reading.).... and thanks Wendi.