
As I’ve told you in past posts, I’ve been having esophageal spasms since last November. The best way that I can describe them is that they are like having a “Charlie-horse” in my neck and jaw. The pain is severe but usually only lasts about 5 to 20 minutes. However, I have to sleep sitting up quite often because it hurts too bad to lie down.
Several of you have let me know that you suffer from the same ailment and have given me good advice about how to manage the pain and cope with it. Thank you.
The Endoscopy I had 2 weeks ago and biopsies they took showed negative results which is a good thing…. but the pain continued.
The doctor put me on Nexium which really helps me. With Nexium the spasms come less often and not as severe. I am happy with that…. but my doctors want me to have the 2 tests next Tuesday described in the above pamphlets.

The Manometry measures the contractions of the esophagus. They put a tube (about the size of a cell phone charger chord) through your nose down to your stomach and have you to swallow to measure the contractions. The test takes about an hour to do.

The second test measures the acid in the esophagus. They put a smaller tube through your nose to your stomach and leave it in for 24 hours. After inserting the tube, they tape it to your face and send you home to monitor the pH level until you go back the next day to have it removed.
I HAVE AN OVER ACTIVE GAG REFLEX.
I SOMETIMES THROW UP JUST BRUSHING MY TEETH!
I told them I can not endure these 2 tests….. they ignored me…. and said I need to have them done. WHY???? The Nexium is helping me just fine.

It reminds me of the day in ICU after our accident that they told me they were going to put a tube in my back and drain my lung because it had collapsed from the pressure of so much blood and fluid.
I told them NO! The doctor said I would die without doing it. I said “I don’t care… I can’t go through that” The doctor said “Yes you can…. and he did it” My friend, Sil, held my hand and helped me get through it.
In that case I really didn’t have a choice and I couldn’t get out of bed to run away…LOL…. But now I do have a choice….. and I can run walk away.
The tests are scheduled for Tues through Wed. I know that faith and fear cannot co-exist with each other…. but I feel like this is just too much. I know that God is always with me and has helped me get through harder things like 15 broken ribs, etc. However, this seems so terrible to me….. I’ve had major surgery and kidney stones since the accident which I was blessed to get through OK… but this feels like “the last straw”.
And…. I have not been having spasm attacks this week. What if I go through the tests and they don’t show anything? Then all the misery of the tests would be for nothing.
I don’t want to do them …. but…. What should I do???? John thinks I should do what the doctors think is best. I am praying for guidance. Please pray with me that I will know what I should do…. and, if needs be…. the courage to do it.
Thanks for being there for me. Hugs, Grammy Lura